These past two days were... odd, to say the ABSOLUTE LEAST. What I think, what I thought, what I feel and don`t feel have been put to the test... like the world is... literally playing a game with me. Like there are people playing a devious game... here`s the conversation as it would go:

"Hmm... this has been a boring week... Wait... I know! Let us compile things onto a human girl and she how she reacts!"

"Excellent plan! Yes, yes, but thosethings should be three very good things. And they should come after one terrible thing! Let us break her... watch her glue herself back together and then fling the three good things right in her face!"

"Oh! That sounds marvelous! I agree... but I have a slightly different version. Let us... let us... confuse her! Throw some mixed feelings into her... break her... watch her glue herself back together, fling the three good things in her face... and then slowly take them away from her!"

"Oooh... that`s terrible! ...Let`s do it!"

-Shakes head- Wouldn`t it be terrible if there WERE people picking on you... -Sigh- That`s how I feel. And the good things all will slowly fade away, -points- there goes one now... And I`ll be left alone again. No one wants to deal with me, I know its true. I`m too difficult. Hmm... Monica wasn`t here today and I had some rather important information to relay to her. Sammi hasn`t e-mailed me in a while... I really want to see her... I haven`t in about 5 months. My god, that long?! -Sigh- That sucks. Gee... I need to see her soon. Maybe next Saturday... But whadda you care, right? Hey! Whadda you care about ANY of this?? Why are you reading it?? And if you`re not reading it.. why am I talking to myself??...More importantly... WHO ARE YOU?! Oh wait!! What the hell... WHO AM I??! Scary part is... I don`t even know... so who does??? NO ONE no one at all. Oh I have a question... why do people have to be so mean? Why do I have to be so mean? I know its not good and I HATE to be mean but... WHY do I do it then? But.. you don`t care.. oh but if you aren`t reading it... and I`m talking to myself... I do care. This whole theory is getting confusing so I`ll stop. I want to have a good ole fashioned adventura... like the ones I used to have. Like the ones... that were crazy... and... hilarious. We don`t have those anymore. Its a shame. That`s all I miss... of the past...