I broke down last nite, its been awhile. Like a month as opposed to a week or two. This week was a happy week, though. I made a new friend. It was pretty great. He`s pretty great. I dunno. I didn`t feel alone this week. Last nite I did though. Too many sad songs... too many love songs. I just felt down. Before I knew it a was having a slight panic attack so I went offline and lay down for awhile. Lord of the Rings the Two Towers was on but that didn`t help at all. I get too excited when watching Lord of the Rings and by no means does that help a panic attack. So, I turned it off and got back online. Yeah. Um... mistake. I probably freaked a few people out. Anywho I got off again, feeling even more down... so I just went to bed with my CD player and Parachutes. I listened to that CD over and over and over again, crying and crying... for no reason. Well... just because sometimes I get down. Sometimes I feel lonley but... don`t we all? I fell asleep and woke up this morning feeling... so much better but still a little disappointed in myself. That`s where I stand right now.