I made myself feel horrible... and now I feel emmense pain becuase I might have hurt someone else... I say no one cares and I`m alone... but I know I have Aldo and I know he cares and... yet I talk to him about... -sigh- Its some weird thing I have. I feel alone, I know I`m not alone. I have him, I have people who care about me, and he`s so important... and I hurt him. Its horrible and... ugly and wrong and I hate myself... and I don`t deserve anything. I`m really sorry... that I put others through feeling worthless and hurt... And I`m going to go... weep for loss and for anger, and hate and love... becuase I love so much it hurts sometimes. Love is blind, and I am blind and... uncompassionate and... totally and completely awful. And no one should have to feel the pain I give off.