Just a Child

Transfigured, magnificent ever-changing boy child. You are my love one day, and then bones and skin twist and you are my fear... you become my despair. Guilded light and sometimes you just want to go back back when you weren't so fucked up and when you were pure and before salt water ran through your veins. Sometimes you just want to run away and find the ones you lost, because all you need is a friend and not a lover, but everyone has abandoned you because you pushed them away. You are throwing everyone away and you cry late at night so no one will hear... and no one does hear. No one knows the deep cuts in your body you inflict. They are there for no reason.You have so much to begin with--and you light yourself on fire, you light your love on fire.