Loneliness is the human condition.

I feel like I have to be in love with someone or something in order to be inspired. But no one will ever fill that gap. I need to get back into the swing of things and forget my sorrow. I'm sort of over people. There is hardly anyone you can depend on one hundred percent. I am certain this time. And I am going to try to stop being that person. It isn't fair. Somehow, I now realize that we have to make our own happiness; I keep telling myself this but it's no use. Forget the parties, and the favors, and the trust I have. It's too much. I think I like having that tinge of misery inside me. It gives me creativity. Of course, we all crave feeling loved, but does anyone really want a false love? I'll make my own, thank you. The screen will bleed a love so pure you'd fall in love with me. And I'd be in love with you, and the world--and we'd all be so happy, you see? But for now, I've swallowed my heart and you'll have to dissect me to get at it.

There's a war inside of me
Do I cause new heartbreak to write a new broken song
Do I push it down or let it run me right into the ground
I, I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
Well I can't stop talking for fear of listening to unwelcome sound
And you haven't called me in weeks and honestly it's bringing me down
Oh I feel like I wouldn't like me if I met me
I feel like you wouldn't like me if you met me
And don't you worry there's still time
Don’t you worry there’s still time