I`ve finally blown it all. I don`t know why I did it... ok, yeah, I know why. I`m afraid. Afraid of what? Afraid of getting hurt, afraid of causing hurt, afraid of losing a friend. Well... I stopped myself from doing one of the three. Its terrible and I feel... ridiculous and dumb. -Sigh- Why do I feel alone? Truth is... I really don`t... I really haven`t for awhile. Why did I say it then? Fear. To drive others away. To keep a friend. Why do I drive others away? I break people. I do. One of the complications of me. And maybe I`m wrong when I say the things I do. Maybe I am. I`m so selfish and inconsiderate of others. And that`s how I break them. That`s how it is and its going to be. No one deserves that. No one I love deserves that. No friend of mine deserves that.