I feel devistated. Thinking will be the end of me. I feel like reading something or seeing or hearing something amazingly sad so I can just cry and get it all out because... its all bottled up and won`t come... And I`m so goddamn sick of not being able to download anything for stupid MAc OS X 10.2.8! >_< -Kicks the hell outta 10.2.8- While the hell must I vent in a friggen blog? Why do I have to be me? Why do I deserve to be here? I don`t. I sin everyday and contribute more and more to the all the shit in this world. I don`t know where the heck i`ll be tomorrow or what`ll happen and... I`m not even sure of what I feel or any emotions I have or why I have them or why mostly all the time deep down I`m unhappy. I don`t know who I am or... why I matter or even if I do matter. I don`t know anything and I don`t care. I`m just angry. So angry at myself and I don`t understand anything. Once again... why must I vent in this friggen blog?!