So... I`m back. -Sigh- Scads of things went wrong at that stupid thing. It was very traumatizing and I`m feeling like such a faliure right now... but the good thing is that I have been enlightened to practice more. And so... I`m going to make Olivia and Abby be on the computer more so that I`m not tempted... No Eddie... trauma... faliure... -sigh- I`m really stressed. i wasn`t stressed before... because I was doing okay. But sadly, I had to play with an accompaniment, like 3 times faster than I had originally played the song. I did not know that this accompaniment was manditory until 10 minutes before I went on. Then my accompaniment was lost... so they pulled some random student pianist to accompany me... who TRIED. And thats all I can say because he did try and it was good for him just sightreading. -Sigh- I just... grr... I`m very upset at myself. I`m so... lost to the world of amounting to anything. 2 failed attempts this week at thing I love to do... -sigh- my acting isn`t good enough and my playing isn`t developed yet... and so I`m just.. lost... Well... I`m going to re-think these passions of mine. Perhaps if I try hard enough I can develop them into talents in a few years....