The Science of Sleep

August 4th I am so in theatres... I have been waiting for this film for more than a year now, Gael Garcia Bernal and Michel Gondry?? Fucking fantastic. Most likely, this film will be released in NY and LA first, so I'd have to wait until I head up to Sarah Lawrence to see it a few weeks later. I love it.

We had this camping idea, but now it's going to be cold and rainy and we can't find a camp site that isn't booked... so i think that's down the drain. Maybe we can just have a barbeque or movie marathon or something. Hell yeah. Barbeque and movie marathon.

We can go for a walk where it's quiet and dry...

And talk about precious things
Like love and law and poverty
Oh, these are the things that kill me
Just talk to me
Life is very long, when you're lonely.

I hate "nice" girls. I eat them for afternoon tea.

I have a migraine the size of an atmoic bomb. Why do people who are rude to you and hate you act so nice toward other people, so that people never see how evil and rude they really are? It frustrates me that some people will never know how two-faced people can be. I mean it. I bet no one would believe me if I said it. Anyhow, about that headache. I think it's junior withdrawal. Most of the cool ones are up in Alabama, and I'm stuck with a few lame ones. Two of my classes are junior classes. The ones that couldn't go are loud and unruly--well, the other ones are most likely like that too... but anyhow, today was super borning. I read to the light House for 2 periods, ate lunch alone, and then had a strange chat with Bryan Martinez for a few hours. Uneventful and underappreciated. Gosh, I'm darn jealous of all them juniors up thar in Alamaba. I sure dun wish I was up there wit um. Yeah. Everyday life is dry and mundane. I actually am really jealous. REALLY. I want to go on a trip, or go somewhere... but I'm stuck here and I'll be stuck here for spring break too. Maybe I'll go up to Austin or some little hick town around here. Maybe there's a show going on, or shopping or... if worse comes to worst, I can lie in the grass with some cows. Yeah, whatever. I just wanna get out, spread my wings and find some new territory. More than anything I want to go out of state--New Mexico or Mexico. Maybe just to the beach. Someone take me awaaaaay. You doing anything spring break? Can you adjust your plans to fit me in there too? I swear. I have money. Just need a ride outta here.

The New Order Ordeal

Won't you please let me go
These words lie inside they hurt me so
And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you
Just what I want to do
I'm not the kind that needs to tell you
Just what you want me to

I saw you this morning
I thought that you might like to know
I received your message in full a few days ago
I understood every word that it said
And now that I've actually heard it
You're going to regret

And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you
Just what you want me to
You're not the kind that needs to tell me
About the birds and the bees

Do you find this happens all the time
Crucial point one day becomes a crime
And I'm not the kind that likes to tell you
Just what I want to do
I'm not the kind that needs to tell you

I've lost you