Wednesday, June 30, 2004

Floating...

I saw a little beach ball rolling down the highway today. It was just off to the side of the traffic, out of harm's way. It was right along side our car, and I couldn`t take my eyes off it. When we came to a fork in the highway, it went the opposite direction. I can`t help wondering if it wanted me to follow it you know... but then I just thought and thought about how life isn`t a fairytale. I hate thinking like that, because it makes things seems so pasty. Like what is, just is, and there's nothing more for us. When I get older, and I have my own car I think I`ll do things like that, chase a sunset just to drive into it, and follow beach balls that will lead me to my destiny.

Saturday, June 26, 2004

Double Yoink!

Name:: Sara

Age::15

Height::
5'1" Oh yeah, someone's growing!

Hair Color:: dark brown

Eye Color:: dark brown

School Life

What's your school's mascot?:
Mustang

School color(s)?:
Red and Blue

G.P.A.?:
101.7

Who is your favorite teacher?: Ms. Davalos, Ms. Puente, Mr. Rominger., Mr. Ruiz, Ms. Perales... They're just all so gosh darn awesome.

What do they teach?: English, Chemistry, Orchestra, and Music Theory.

Is this your favorite class?: I`d say... those are my favorites, yes.
Internet

Do you use any instant messengers?: yes

If so, which ones?: AIM, and Yahoo.

About how many hours a day do you spend online?: I`ve cut down, actually.

Do you have a digital camera?: Yes.

If so, do you post pictures of yourself online?: I have in the past.

Music

Do you play any instruments?: yes

If so, what one(s)?: cello

3 Favorite Genres Of Music::
This is hard... emo, ska, alternative indie rock.

3 Favorite Bands::
As of right now, The Smiths, The Cure, Death Cab For Cutie

Do you go to concerts and/or shows?: I`d like to.

What is the most you've ever spent on a concert/show?: None..

What is the least you've ever spent?: None..

Do you think buying merch at a concert then wearing it there is corny?: oh... yes.

Do you listen to any bands that you'd be ashamed to admit to listening to?: hmm... -shrug-


Did you notice the grammatical error in question 29?: I`m not going back.


Word Association

Blue:: Bird... singing a song.

Camera:: lens

Boy:: girl

Pretty:: princess

Pants:: square.

Music:: ploosic... o_o

God:: Jesus

Sweater:: LOVE

Live Journal:: Sucks

MTV:: crap t.v. (Tab's answer.. but I agree.)

Labels:

Do you think labels are dumb?: Yep.

Why or why not?: It just seems like a division..

What do people label you as?: "School girl", "The stuck up kind"

How/Why did you get this label?: Because... I`m different.

Which Is Worse?

Physical Pain/Emotional Pain?: Neither.

Blink-182/Good Charlotte?: Um.. Blink 182.

Being Deaf/Being Blind?: Deaf.

Being Bored/Rushing around because you have too much to do?:
Rushing. I like doing something... not doing nothing. o-o

Losing your dominant leg/Losing your dominant arm?:
Um... I didn`t know I had a dominant leg so... leg.

Love

Do you believe theres a difference between "love" and "in love"?:
Yes... come to think of it.

Is it better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all?:
Um... not if the person is an asshole about admitting he ever had feelings for you.

Are you romantic?:
Good question.

Are you in a relationship now?:
No.

If so, for how long?:
N/A

If not, how long have you been single?:
Awhile.

Are you a virgin?:
Yes.

What song describes your love life right now?:

Ranomosity

War: Good or Bad?:
Bad

What do you think of designer labels?:
I like the stuff in vogue.. but its so damn expensive. u_U



What is it with guys and cars?:
Ask Tabitha... she knows, not me.

Do you sing?:
Heh.. not well.

If so, what part (Soprano 1,Alto 2, et cetera)?:
I`m an alto... or so Ms. Perales says.

Kiss or hug?:
hugs!

What color is your room?:
Yellow and Purple... or.. Pink..

How old is your mom?:
Um.. 41?

Black and white or color photos?:
Black and white.

Who cuts your hair?:
Whoever is at wherever I go to get it cut.

What color is your toothbrush?:
Blue and yellow.

What color is your hair brush?:
I don't brush my hair, ever.

What kind of hair products do you use?:
Moouse, and conditioner.

Is K-Mart just the poor man's Wal-Mart?:
I hate them both...

Are you sXe?:
-blink-

Are you sexy?:
-blink-

What color to people tells you looks nice on you?:
Um... er... patterns?

What color do you think looks nice on you?:
Stuff I like...

Clothes shopping or grocery shopping?:
Clothes. Jeez, I can`t get enough of those things.

Who do you sit with at lunch?
Um, er... last time I had lunch... it was with my dad, Sarah, Monica, Matt, Mike, and Trisha Brady. o_o

Do you like the sound of your own voice when you hear it played back?:
Oh... no. I sound so widdle and yucky.

Who has the nicest speaking voice that you know?:
Oh...

What is the website for one of your favorite bands?:
nodoubt.com But.. they're mean because they didn`t come to Texas. ;_;

Do you prefer to date people younger, older, or the same age as you?:
It doesn`t matter.

Do you listen to songs on repeat often?: When don`t I?

Who was the last person you hung out with?:
Monica, and Brian.

What did you and that person do?:
We were just chilling together on the porch for awhile... discussing how we belong in some other generation... or world.

Do you use internet shorthand (i.e. "lol", "brb", "jk", et cetera)?:
Just brb.

How often do you bathe?:
Every day or every other day

Are you a people-pleaser?:
Hmm... I am sometimes.

Do you dye your hair regularly?:
Nope.

What about your eyebrows?:
Er... only 1 person I know does that... and it looks dumb.

Do you wear makeup?:
Blush, when I look pale from stress.

If you answered "yes", to #96, are you female?:
I`m uh... female, why?

Do you buy CDs edited or unedited?:
What`s a CD? o-o

Can you beatbox?: What is that?

Does your mom like the song "Hey Ya" by OutKast?: She loves it!

Thursday, June 24, 2004

On: Filming

It is insane. n_n That is all. I`m also being dumb... dumb me.

Monday, June 21, 2004

I`m Not Sorry- Morrissey

And I'm, Not sorry for, For the things I've done
And I'm, Not looking for, Just anyone

On competing, Oh, when will this tired heart stop beating?, It's all a game, Existence is only a game
And I'm, Not sorry for, For the things I've done
And I'm, Not looking for, Just anyone

I'm, Slipping below the water line, I'm, Slipping below the water line
Reach for my hand, And, And the race is won
Reject my hand, And, The damage is done

I'm, Slipping below the water line
I'm, Slipping below the water line

The woman of my dreams, She, She never came along
The woman of my dreams, Well, There never was one

And I'm, Not sorry for, For the things I've said
There's a wild man in my head, There's a wild man In my head

Actually, I am kinda sorry... just for stupid choices. But only because... karma got me. So then again.. I`m not sorry, I deserved dark karma. So... just go on with whatver you were doing. Evidently you were bored, snce you're here... and incidentally, I am because I`m writing this. I`ve nothing better to do... well... enjoy life while you can.

Sunday, June 20, 2004

Feeling neurotic.

I don`t know what's wrong with me. I`ve felt so weak and tired and... stupid since Thursday. I spent the day finishing Franny and Zooey. It really is a good, good book. We got my dad the new Morrissey album for father's day... and spent the day at my Uncle Joe's house. Read Franny and Zooey.. and listened to Morrissey. Such a... sad album. I listened to it lying on the living room couch, staring out the window......... hmmm.... Then my family was talking about cancer in the family... and deaths and tumors... and I was thinking so many things... like how life can just stop, like that. And we worry... about meaningless crap like... oh I don't know. I guess it just matters to be happy.... but I don't know about... this life.

Saturday, June 19, 2004

I have traced my mysterious caller.

Damn you, Budget Suits of America! I thought you were someone cool. u_U

What am I up to?

I`m about ready to strangle the next person that says hello to me. :D I`m being driven absolutely stark raven mad. More work to do. Hoorah!

Wednesday, June 16, 2004

How bored was I? ...You'll see.

About You:
What is your full name?:Sara Lauren
When is your Birthday?:January 13.
Where were you born?:San Antonio
Hair Colour::Darkish Brownish blackish
Eyecolour::Same as above.
Height::5 foot.
Weight::90
siblings and names::Abby, Liv
glasses/contacts::Contacts.
peircings/tattoos::Ears.. only. u_U
have you ever had braces?:Nope.
Favourites:
Colour::It changes all the time.
Holiday::Christmas...
band::Wow. Too hard.
song::Changes every day... but I like Styrofoam Plates. Soo.. sad.
tv show::Umm... I like Seinfeid... and Degrassi. Ha ha ha. :D
movie::Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind... of course.
video game::Gross.
stuffed animal::My Mr. Bear.
person:::D You kids know how you are.
food::Too many.
animal::GIRAFFES!
scent::Hard one... fresh fruit?
cereal::Used to be.. Lucky Charms... but the marshmellows! The marshmellows!!
cartoon::Daria. La la la la la...
website::Er... hmm.
Do You:
have a job?:No. Currently unemployed. Hire me, I do anything!
play an instrument?:Yes, cello.
like to sing?:Yup.
have a cell phone?:Yes...
have a crush on someone?who?:The hope of a crush.. again. u_u Er... jeez I dunno.
exercise daily?:Ha ha ha, that`s funny.
have more than 5 tvs in your house?:No... man! 5?!
like school?:I like learning... and socializing... but I`d rather do both out of school.
Have You Ever:
snuck out of the house?:To take a 3 am walk... alone. Always alone.
cried to get out of trouble?:All the time.
gotten lost in your town?:Oh yeah. Like that time.. Me Tab and Monica went in circles... but we weren`t lot... just off track.
been anywhere outside of canada?:I live in.. the U.S. and... I guess that qualifies me of ever being outsied of Canada. o_o
stolen anything?:No.
had a serious surgery?:No... but strangely.. I`ve aways wanted to. Just to know what it's like.
cried over a boy/girl?:Yeah...
done drugs?:No.
drank?:Not so that I got drunk.
got into a fist fight?:Nope.
been in love?:Yes.
ran over an animal and killed it?:I don`t drive... but I might have squished acouple bugs under my converse.
broken a bone?:Yes. My arm... playing Cinderella... long story.
gotten stitches?:Almost in my chin... put they but Elmer's gel glue instead!
bitten someone?:All the time.
Whens The Last Time You:
saw a movie in theaters?:Sunday with Sarah. Spring, Summer, Fall Winter and Sping. Now... go see it!
had a party?:Er... my parents have them... but I don`t.
got sick?:Don`t remember... but I remember last time I faked sick.
cursed::Today when that ady tried to KILL me and Carly.
was annoyed? by who?:Not answering this...
cried?:It's been awhile, surprisingly. Th
drank alcohol?:Um... second nite of "Joseph"... red wine.. and I WAS NOT drunk.
This or That:
fruit/vegetables::BOTH!
black/white::BOTH!
guys/girls::Guys... and girls... for different things.
pillows/blankets::Mmmm... snuggly.
boxers/breifs::Briefs?
night/day::Night.
sunrise/sunset::Sunsets are lovely... though as are sunrises...
summer/winter::winter.
meat/vegetarian::veggie!
pants/shorts::pants.
headache/stomach ache::ooh... neither.
cake/pie::cake.
chocolate/vanilla:vanilla. (pronounced in spanish!)
Friendship:
how many friends do you have?:roughly... 110! i dunno i don't count.
who are your closest friends?:well definately... sarah... and ruby... and tab.. and max... and dez... and... others... but those are people I tell most everything.
have you ever liked oneof your friends?:Yes...
have you ever lost a friend?:Not to death.
whats the nicest thing you have ever done for a friend?:I can`t remember.
whats the nicest thing a friend has ever done for you?:There are too many nice things that they've all done.
what friend have you known the longest?:Sarah. n_n
how often are you with your friends?:Often.
Love and such:
Have you ever been in love?:Yes...
with who?:Does it matter who?
are you single/seeing anyone/in a long term relationship?:Single.
whats your idea of the perfect date?:Going somewhere beautiful with someone beautiful and just... being.
whats the best thing about the opposite sex?:I can`t really say... come to think of it.. who know.s
whats the best experience you have had with the opposite sex?:Just feeling... understood and feeling beautiful I guess.
do you think love is a load of crap?:Well... no, I honestly don't.
whats your definition of love?:Caring deeply for someone... appreciating them... and
I:
love::So many things.
want::Honesty and... appreciation.
need::A sidekick... and to meet someone... new and... cool.
am::A little crazy.
feel::Neglected.
hate::Being cast out.
miss::I try to steer from this stuff.
would rather::Get up and go find what I want.
am tired of::Just waiting....
am annoyed by::Present-day neanderthals.
will always::Remember to be myself... and not be ashamed.
Would you Ever:
sky dive/bungee jump?:Definately.
not take a shower for a week?:Yeah.
ask someone out?:Yes.
lie to someone to make them think better of you?:I've done it one or two times... sadly.
visit a foreign country for more than a month?:Of course!
go scuba diving?:Yes.
write a book?:Oh yes.
become a rockstar?:It'd be new and different, sure.
Last Questions:
did you enjoy this survey?:Actaully, yes.
say something nice about the person who sent it to you::The person who sent it to me has talent oozing out of her ears... (it was me)
what time is it now?:8:42
are you bored?:I know I wll be in a minute.
any last words::Somebody IM me for goodness sake!

really long survey... brought to you by BZOINK!

Yoink! Stolen from Tab's LJ!

LAYER ONE:
-- name: Sara
-- birthplace: San Antonio, Texas
-- current location: San Antonio, Texas
-- eye color: Dark Brown
-- hair color: Dark Brown
-- height: 5 foot... u_u
-- righty or lefty: righty
-- zodiac sign: Capricorn

LAYER TWO:
-- your heritage: hispanic american
-- the shoes you wore today: flip flops
-- your weakness: ha ha ha! you thought you would fool me, harris?!?!
-- your fears: none that i know of.
-- your perfect pizza: cheese and spinach mmm...
-- goals you'd like to achieve: become internally beautiful, contributing to aiding the world, being happy and making others happy.

LAYER THREE:
-- your most overused phrase on AIM: ko
-- your thoughts first waking up: if only i had... some black curtains... or one of those sleeping things that go over your eyes.
-- your bedtime: when i get tired.
-- your most missed memory: i try not to dwell on missing things.

LAYER FOUR:
-- pepsi or coke: Pepsi
-- mcdonald's or burger king: Burger King, hooray BK Veggie!
-- single or group dates: um... either?
-- adidas or nike: let's see... they... have child laborers... so neither.
-- lipton ice tea or nestea: Lipton
-- chocolate or vanilla: i'm a vanilla kinda girl.
-- cappuccino or coffee: cappuchino

LAYER FIVE:
-- smoke: Nope.
-- cuss: Only if I`m really realy mad... like at that bitch that tried to run me and Carly over today.
-- sing: I love to... but.. -shrug- Karoke with Max!
-- take a shower everyday: pretty much
-- have a crush: the dream of a crush... er... how sad can you get?
-- do you think you've been in love: yes
-- want to go to college: In New England... but Austin first.
-- like(d) high school: It's okay... but this year... I was depressed most of the time.
-- want to get married: I am! n_n But uh... don't tell potential husbands this!
-- believe in yourself: Rarely..
-- Get motion sickness: On long trips n the car.. when I haven`t eaten.
-- think you're attractive: No.
-- think you're a health freak: I tried to be... like... a week ago. Gave that up the next day.
-- get along with your parent(s): My father, definately... my mom.. when we're both in good moods.
-- like thunderstorms: Love them.
-- play an instrument: The lovely cello... and... er... that's it.

LAYER SIX:
in the past month...
-- drank alcohol: um... yeah. but only wine.
-- smoked: nope
-- done a drug: no.
-- had sex: No.
-- made out: No.
-- gone on a date: no.
-- gone to the mall: once.
-- been on stage: sadly... no.
-- been dumped: no.
-- gone skating: no... skating scares me.
-- made homemade cookies: Mmm... of course.
-- gone skinnydipping: sadly no.
-- dyed your hair: never have.
-- stolen anything: nope... well... hmm... i can`t think of what.


LAYER SEVEN:
ever...
-- played a game that required removal of clothing: no.
-- if so, was it mixed company: ...
-- been trashed or extremely intoxicated: No.
-- been caught "doing something": No.
-- been called a tease: Yes....
-- gotten beaten up: not technically.
-- shoplifted: No...
-- changed who you were to fit: Yes... um... beginning of this year? I got over that.

LAYER EIGHT:
-- age you hope to be married: I`m not sure but... a friday the 13 in the year 2013. o_o
-- numbers and names of children: I`m not sure how many. More than one... and I like SO many names... Faith... Natividad, -- describe your dream wedding: Uhm.....I Do's at the end.
-- how do you want to die: I have no place to say how I die.
-- where you want to go to college: Pretty much undecided.
-- what do you want to be when you grow up: Anything to do with business.
-- what country would you most like to visit: England, or Australia.

LAYER NINE:
in a guy/girl..
-- best eye color? Doesn`t matter to me. Though I do love those greens. And... Vivien Leigh's eyes are lovely.
-- best hair color? Er..?
-- short or long hair: Long!
-- height: any height.
-- best weigh: doesn`t matter.
-- best articles of clothing: no white sicks, please.
-- best first date location: an aquarium? i think aquariums are romantic. n_n
-- best first kiss location: What matters is it being the right guy..

LAYER TEN:
-- # of drugs taken illegally: none.
-- # of people i could trust with my life: hmm... like 5.
-- # of CDs that i own: i can`t say... it's all digital now. i can count for you... but no one really cares.
-- # of piercings: my ears.
-- # of tattoos: i think i'd like one actually.
-- # of scars on my body: one that i can think of... on my chin. there's more though.
-- # of things in my past that i regret: nothing regrettable has happened to me.

Fate is stupid.

I`m pulling out the phone book.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

Calling It Quits

I think I give up on my missing person. It doesn`t seem like the universe is keen on my locating anyone right now. Random things keep crashing down right before my eyes, and I believe that`s how my missing person chase will end. Well, it turns out Samantha`s boyfriend Michael was Ruby`s boyfriend Michael... and he was their boyfriend at the same time. I don`t really know how to deal with this... because Michael has poisoned Sam`s mind. He old Sam he met Ruby at summer band camp. Got with her as a joke. It was a joke right from the begininng. If that`s true then... explain to me why Michael chased Ruby around just 2 months ago. How he pulled her away from us at lunch to go to the courtyard. How he made us leave them alone at times. He's told Sam that Ruby called him then because she's a stalker... and at school she follows him around. I for one know Ruby. Michael says he broke up with her about 8 months ago... He did brake up with her though. But that wasn`t the end of them. Ruby wasn`t ever too smitten on Michael. But sometime in March, that changed. He liked her again and she liked him a lot... and then it all started. And just a couple days ago, Michael threw himself at Ruby, wanted another chance... He's cheated on Sam, and cheated on Ruby as well! It's horrible to think about, how a guy... a seemingly nice, wholesome guy can do things like that. Well.. it isn`t too suprising to me. He was charming the whole night, too charming. Ruby's hurt, and this is really wrong, so something must be done. I don`t think she'd tell me things that weren`t true, and in that case, this guy must be destroyed. Two awesome people I know, two best friends, wth the only link between them me, and this scum bag. What are the odds? Two hearts broken over this low life. I`m so angry. After all this downing on Ruby, I told them "Oh... Ruby's one of my good friends." It suddenly became uneasy after that, but it's to be expected. Then, this guy started up on Dorothy. (Hector's gonna love this.) Another of my friends! "Blah blah blah... Dorthy's obsessed with me... shes so concieted..." Oh man. Everything kept sinking further and further. I wasn`t about to tell them she was another good friend. I just said I knew her. She was nice, she had a boyfriend. I doubt she is obsessing over you. Nothing to worry about, Sam. Throughout all this, Michael never connected me with Ruby until I told him. Maybe he did but he acted like he didn`t... and maybe he knows what`s coming. Besides his being a sleaze bag he sure does talk a lot of mess. Oh... what to do! I`m not sure Sam will believe me. >_<

Friday, June 11, 2004

From the wrinkles on my forehead
To the mud upon my shoe
Everything's a memory
With strings that tie to you

In my dream I'm often running
To the place that's out of you
Of every kind of memory
With strings that tie to you

Though a change has taken place
And I no longer do adore her
Still every God forsaken place is always
Right around the corner

Now I know it's either them or me
So I'll bury every clue
And every kind of memory
With strings that tie to you

And every kind of memory
With strings that tie to you

Such a sad and pretty song...

Tuesday, June 08, 2004

I`m so bored. No one can do anything or... wants to do anything... Home leaves something to be desired. I want a book, a good book like... Catcher in the Rye.. or the Sound and the Fury... or something GOOD. I wish I had Soundtrack. I feel invisible. A lot.

Yes we have no bananas! We have no bananas today! We have oranges and apples and all kinds of fruit, but we have no bananas today, today... we have no bananas today!

I... had a little skunk that belonged to me, it was the cutest little sunk that I ever did see but when I tried to take him in the house with me... my mom got mad and she said to me... she said, "GET OUT, GET OUT OF HERE!" She said,"GET OUT, GET OUT OF HERE!" She said,"GET OUT, GET OUT OF HERE! P.U.!! GET OUT OF HERE!" :D

I had an evil plan last nite. Mostly because I was really angry and enraged. It all happened very suddenly... for no reason at all.

Monday, June 07, 2004

Summing up my weekend... Invader Zim, Egg rolls, Books, The Day After Tomorrow, Ez`s, Ghost World. Note that RED AIRHEADS are conspiciously absent. -_-

I am contemplating.... half birthdays and half bithday parties. n_n

Saturday, June 05, 2004

Oh... my head hurts. My mom and little sister are playing video games in my room. I have new mail, a chain letter. -Yawn- Um... yesterday was good. Harry Potter, Degrassi. Both were pretty awesome. I spent pretty much the entire day with my freshman clan, and I developed a plot for a screen play. I had a conversation of ignorance, that I cast aside. I slept too much today. And dreamt of... who knows what. I'm not uptight. And I care, about, things that matter. I think this is the end of this post because... my head hurts.

Tuesday, June 01, 2004

No sign of Robert anywhere... >_> Or Tab... it's a conspiracy!! They're making me crazy. -Yawn- Stupid kids.

It's June! Everything's going good, we filmed a zombie movie today. And watched Magnolia. n_n And then my mom bought me new veggie foods! Hooray. I just ate a whole bag of ceasar salad... which I am proud to say had NO anchovies! Yay! Lemme see... oh... I saw Vanilla Sky this morning, it was on at about 3 AM. Might I say that`s a sad and lovely movie. Lucid dreams... The whole plot reminded me somewhat of Eternal Sunshine. I liked it a lot. So sad. I always like sad and nostalgic things... because most oftenly they are beautiful as well. Welp welp, just talked to Toni about the dollar movies and she's pretty much a go, so... we just need to locate that silly Tabitha and crazy Autumn. n_n